Mothers Day is a bittersweet day for me as I mentioned earlier this week. I am so blessed to have my mother, my grandma, my aunt Sharon who is another mother figure in my life–so blessed. I am blessed to be the mother of two baby angels, Josie and Eli. Mother’s Day is hardest as I won’t be holding my babies or getting any sweet kisses here on earth, but today I wanted to send a little letter to my babies so that they know how they have changed me and made me a better person. They made me a mommy, and for that I am so blessed. I have friends and loved ones who may not have ever experienced such a treasure. And so, instead of sulking or wallowing in the sorrow and the pain that comes from living each day these past few years without them, I will send gratitude for the gifts that they have given me, even in the short time they were here with me.
To My Sweet Angels,
There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about you two. Each and every day when I see a smiling toddler or a crying baby, I think of what it may have been like to experience such things with each of you. When I look around and see other mommies with their babies, I wonder what our lives would be like if you were here. And when I start to become sad and heartbroken, I am reminded of the gift that you gave me. The gift that no one can ever take away. The gift of being a mommy–your mommy. That’s what you two angels gave me.
The best days of my life started when I knew each of you were here. I was so happy to be your mom. I was so lucky to be with you. You gave me a new meaning to life and you made me realize what’s really important, what life is really all about. I felt love in a way I had never dreamed possible–and I still do, every time I think of each of you.
I will say it’s not easy most days since each of you left us to go home to heaven. I cry sometimes, I even get angry. I don’t understand. But then I remind myself that I am and always will be your mommy and that we have a special love, a special bond, even though you are so very far away. And holding on to the thought that I will get to hold you one day brings me hope again.
Please know that I will always love you, I will always miss you, and I will always think of you. You are my treasures. You are the highlight of who I am. You changed me forever and I am so grateful for that.
Josie Florene and Eli Michael, I love you. A thousand times a thousand multiplied by infinity, I love you forever and always.
PS Your daddy agrees with everything I said!
As I said, this week is tough, but focusing on the positive versus the sadness helps a bit, though certainly not the cure all. Being with the people I love the most is also a key ingredient to getting through the tougher days! Thanks for listening and letting me share a piece of my heart.
Now it’s time to nourish our bodies since we had a little bit for the soul already.
There are these new bars called Curate Bars. They are supposed the be energy bars that are very exquisite flavors. They combine some things you would not expect and mix in dates, quinoa, chia seeds and more. I was very surprised by the addition of balsamic vinegar to one of the flavors called Dark & Tempting. I quite enjoyed the flavor, but the ingredient list was still quite long and a few things on the list didn’t sound like anything I knew.
So I got out the food processor and put these Balsamic, Fig + Orange Energy Bites together. If you like fig anything, you will love these. The orange makes these bites quite refreshing. I actually made a batch with lemon as well and wow, they were good too. Anthony, who doesn’t like anything that would have the title “Balsamic Fig Orange” said these were my best bites yet. I will take that as a seal of approval!
Balsamic, Fig + Orange Energy Bites
- 12 dried mission figs chopped
- 5 medjool dates pitted
- 1 c raw almonds
- 1/2 c raw pecans
- 1 T Balsamic Vinegar
- Juice of 1/2 navel orange
- Zest of 1/2 orange
- 1/2 tsp vanilla extract
- Sea Salt
- In a food processor, process almonds and pecans until a fine, grainy texture.
- Add in all other ingredients and process until a dough begins to form.
- Allow to chill for about 5-10 minutes.
- Roll into bite sized balls and enjoy!