This week, I have not really felt too much in the game. I am pretty sure it’s rubbing off on my pup, Tux, as you may note in his picture above. Blue, sad, you name it, that’s me. I’ve sat and thought, cried, and buried myself under the blankets contemplating staying there forever a few times. And why? Sure there is a long story but at this time the story is safe in my heart. What it all really boils down to though is one word: control. All I want is control; control over the situation, but I lack control and that’s what drives me crazy.
There’s a saying one of my teachers in grade school used to say, “Let go and let God.” when things in life were totally out of our hands. I am all for that…most of the time, but when I don’t get what I desperately want in the time that I want, and further the time frame is out of my control, well, you know, I can’t stand it. So basically, my phrase should be, “Let go and Let God (assuming that God gives me exactly what I want, when I want.)” Hmmmm. Sounds like a major contingency.
I truly believe everything happens for a reason. The problem with this belief is when the opposite of what I hope for happens, I have to fully accept that there is a reason. There IS a reason. Unfortunately, the reason isn’t always right there in front of my face.
So how do we handle this need for control? In life? In relationships? How do we let go? I can certainly say that I don’t have the answers all right in this ballgame. One thing we have to learn is this little thing called patience. Yep, I hear it’s a virtue, but it’s certainly not one of my best. When we decide we want to be the puppeteer to every little detail of our lives and everything within it, we let go of patience. When we let go of patience, we deny ourselves presence. Why would we do such a thing? Often, for me, it is because I want to escape raw feelings, uncomfortable feelings. If things hurry up and go my way, then I won’t have to feel this sadness, this anger, or this pain. But everything happens for a reason, right? So, for some reason (one I am still searching long and hard for) I am meant to be present and feel these feelings.
So then, how do I take time to be present when all I want is to skip to the next chapter? I will let you know, when I have the answer. I’m hoping it will come soon.
So in the midst of a busy week when I wasn’t feeling very motivated, I needed a dinner that I could fix super fast and it had to be easy. Of course I wanted it to be delicious as well. I also had to make sure that it was something the hubby would be happy to eat. He loves quesadillas, so I thought I could try to whip up a black bean soup for us as well. And, boy was it easy as ever! Not to mention super tasty! We ate it up so fast I forgot to take a picture of it!
20 Minute Black Bean and Salsa Soup
2 garlic cloves
3 cans of black beans (BPA free)
2 cups low sodium vegetable broth
1 16 oz. jar of salsa (make it fresh if you aren’t in a pinch!)
1 T cumin powder
1/2 tsp chili powder
1. Put onion and garlic into food processor. Pulse until the garlic and onion are chopped.
2. Add two cans of beans, salsa, vegetable broth, cumin and chili powder and run until desired consistency.
3. Transfer to a pot, add last can of beans and cook on medium stirring occasionally. Add more vegetable broth if soup is too thick.
4. Serve it up! I threw some fresh cilantro and avocado on top.
Like I said, this is a last minute kind of dinner that is ready in no time. If you have the time, using dry beans is always better and cheaper than the canned.